It’s almost December 14 and this is my standard reflection post as I countdown to my birthday. This time last year, I was excited and nervous about Chapter 31 but I had faith in God. So how was it?
Chapter 31 started with a real battle of faith with regards to my Masters program. I had to hold on to the word of God despite several disappointments and uncertainties. But God came through in such a mind-blowing way. I don’t think I will ever forget the day I received $11,500 from two amazing ladies to pay off my school fees balance. What?! It still feels surreal even as I type now.
And that really is how Chapter 31 has been. If I could describe it, I’d say it was my year of crazy faith that led me to encounter great depths in God. Of course, the process wasn’t pretty at all. So many times, I felt weary. Burdened. I wondered why God just wanted to take me through tough roads. In fact, when I started the year, His word to me was, “Though you go through fire, you won’t be burned and though you go through deep waters, you will not drown.”
“Which one is fire now?” That’s exactly what I said to Abba.
And I really did go through fire and deep waters. I battled with gastrointestinal issues throughout the year. It wasn’t pretty at all. I wondered why it persisted for so long but I had to hold on to the truth that I have received my healing. I also went through deep waters in my finances. It felt like I was perpetually in a season of just enough but I wanted more than enough. It was quite frustrating for me but I had to trust God for every single thing.
Chapter 31 taught me that God is more than able to take care of me. There were times I was flat out broke but somehow, sufficient money will come to take care of a specific need. Abba, I am grateful for the supernatural provision I experienced this year.
Aside from the physical pain, I also felt emotional pain. I had to let go of someone I love so deeply and abruptly too. It wasn’t the easiest thing to do. I remember spending several weeks wanting answers but Abba just kept saying, “Trust me, this will work out for good.” I believe it will make sense soon.
On the flip side, I experienced a new depth in my friendship with my sister tribe. We laughed together, cried together…they held and encouraged me through the weary moments. Francesca, Oduola, Damilola, Tundun, Modupe, Olamide, KK, Tobe…thank you ladies for everything. Thank you for loving me, for praying with me, for lifting me up when I was low in faith. I pray our love and bond continues to grow stronger.
Aside from my sister tribe, God also blessed me with women who I had the privilege of walking with in their faith journey. I had the privilege of seeing God do mighty things in their lives. Thank you for trusting me and attending the Women on a Mission Meetings and other prayer groups.
Looking back, I think the last quarter of Chapter 31 was the toughest. For quite some time, I felt like I was floating, not sure what Abba really wanted me to do. Then there were a number of deaths that really shook me. A project that I was excited about was terminated abruptly. Ah, it pained me because I gave it my all. And then we had plan to have our first event out of Nigeria for The Comms Avenue but we couldn’t go because we didn’t have the funds we needed. I was disappointed and wondered why God was giving me all these big dreams without money. LOL.
But Chapter 31 like I mentioned before has been filled with such jaw-dropping testimonies. Aside from the $11,500, I completed my Masters program with many accolades. I got to travel to Madrid which was another adventure in itself. The Comms Avenue community has grown in leaps and bounds. And I have continued to see and experience the goodness and kindness of God so tangibly.
As I go into Chapter 32, honestly I cannot really explain how I feel. Did I forget to mention that last month I wasn’t really excited about this birthday? But something happened one day during a prayer watch where I just decided to focus on counting my blessings because indeed, Abba has been good to me and my family.
I remember Abba asking what I want for my birthday and I simply asked Him to surprise me. And I meant it. I don’t have any grand expectations for Chapter 32…I just want Abba to have His way. I just want His will to be done and I just want to make Him proud.
It’s been a long year but I am ever thankful to God for His love and care. Ah, Abba really does love me. He does. I love You right back Abba, forever and always.
For those interested in getting me something for my birthday, the two things I really want is support to print more hard copies of my book and support for the work we are doing at The Comms Avenue. I know some people rolled their eyes after reading this so I have put together a Wishlist – bit.ly/Adedoyin1412
However, beyond the Wishlist and presents, I’d really appreciate a word of prayer. That God will continue to keep and guide me. That He will continue to hide me under the shadow of His wings and shower me with His love. That’s all I want. That’s all I need.
I’m ready for December 14 and all that Abba has in store in Chapter 32!
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